This project has been put on hold for the time being.
It will return eventually, just as soon as I've got the edit for the first book completed.
Friday
Wednesday
Yakashmite 30th 7648 S.F
Well, last day of the month… And I must say it’s most welcomed! Hopefully Stratlier will be a better month, because to be quite honest, this one has been rather dull.
It’s also Keela’s birthday in two days, and I must admit, I’m quite looking forward to it, I have my ball gown, I’ll have my hair all done nice and pretty and I cannot wait to enjoy the revelry.
I do wish Keela’s birthday would occur in the warmer months as she always has nice, extravagant parties, and to be able to enjoy them in the warm gardens would be nice, but I like the ball room also, even if it is a little grim.
The architecture is nice, as is the décor, it’s just so big and the candlelight makes things look a bit gloomy.
Still, it should be good fun!
I’m going to sleep now, so – Good night.
Ellie
It’s also Keela’s birthday in two days, and I must admit, I’m quite looking forward to it, I have my ball gown, I’ll have my hair all done nice and pretty and I cannot wait to enjoy the revelry.
I do wish Keela’s birthday would occur in the warmer months as she always has nice, extravagant parties, and to be able to enjoy them in the warm gardens would be nice, but I like the ball room also, even if it is a little grim.
The architecture is nice, as is the décor, it’s just so big and the candlelight makes things look a bit gloomy.
Still, it should be good fun!
I’m going to sleep now, so – Good night.
Ellie
Tuesday
Yakashmite 29th 7648 S.F
Unspoken thoughts lie around in my head
Unwritten words latch onto this heart of mine
Untethered feelings bring me down endlessly
Uninterrupted are the moments filled with thoughts of you
Undefined are the boundaries through which this mind travels
Unliked are the dark feelings and sadness that has occurred
Unplanned was the entire sudden episode which took place
Underestimated was the effort required to deal with these emotions
Uncried are tears, which have been blocked away with difficulty
Unpleasant are the mood swings and the misery this has brought
Unprepared I was, for what was building inside of me, for you
Underway is the voice within, a silent whisper with hope, wishing things could be different
Undecided is the step to take, to help myself out of this….
Unfinished are the streams of words, thoughts and feelings which are flowing freely at this moment…
--
My mind is in utter shambles today, I just can’t concentrate on anything!
Ella x
Unwritten words latch onto this heart of mine
Untethered feelings bring me down endlessly
Uninterrupted are the moments filled with thoughts of you
Undefined are the boundaries through which this mind travels
Unliked are the dark feelings and sadness that has occurred
Unplanned was the entire sudden episode which took place
Underestimated was the effort required to deal with these emotions
Uncried are tears, which have been blocked away with difficulty
Unpleasant are the mood swings and the misery this has brought
Unprepared I was, for what was building inside of me, for you
Underway is the voice within, a silent whisper with hope, wishing things could be different
Undecided is the step to take, to help myself out of this….
Unfinished are the streams of words, thoughts and feelings which are flowing freely at this moment…
--
My mind is in utter shambles today, I just can’t concentrate on anything!
Ella x
Monday
Yakashmite 28th 7648 S.F
It’s been raining all day.
The skies are grey with heavy clouds, the ground wet from the downpour.
Candles have lit my room all day as the gloom seeped inside and made itself at home.
Lightning fills up the sky nicely, and the thunderous roar that follows makes a nice change from the monotonous pat-pat-pat against the glass of my window.
Layanna visited today, she says she’s worried about me, that aside from meals she hardly ever sees me. Though she did say it with some snide and a crooked sneer, almost like I was doing wrong.
It didn’t stop her from sitting on my bed for three hours to rattle on about everything her mind can conjour.
I love my sisters, but sometimes I wish they’d learn to leave me alone. I’ve isolated myself for a reason.
My dress is coming along nicely though, I’ve marked out all the fabrics, but I want to make sure the measurements are just right before I cut them.
Must get back to work
Toodles
Ella XxXxX
The skies are grey with heavy clouds, the ground wet from the downpour.
Candles have lit my room all day as the gloom seeped inside and made itself at home.
Lightning fills up the sky nicely, and the thunderous roar that follows makes a nice change from the monotonous pat-pat-pat against the glass of my window.
Layanna visited today, she says she’s worried about me, that aside from meals she hardly ever sees me. Though she did say it with some snide and a crooked sneer, almost like I was doing wrong.
It didn’t stop her from sitting on my bed for three hours to rattle on about everything her mind can conjour.
I love my sisters, but sometimes I wish they’d learn to leave me alone. I’ve isolated myself for a reason.
My dress is coming along nicely though, I’ve marked out all the fabrics, but I want to make sure the measurements are just right before I cut them.
Must get back to work
Toodles
Ella XxXxX
Sunday
Yakashmite 27th 7648 S.F
I’ve decided to take up a new project to help me pass the time and stem some boredom. I’m going to MAKE my own dress!
It’s not like I don’t know how, Miss Brona, my old nanny taught my sisters and I how to sew and create basic clothes when we were younger, I know this is a gargantuan task compared to say, a hood, but I am honestly bored.
I’ve had the servants come and bring my materials and equipment to my chambers, it should hopefully keep me busy, plus I get to stare out of my window all day.
Brilliant!
Well, best get started.
Ella x
It’s not like I don’t know how, Miss Brona, my old nanny taught my sisters and I how to sew and create basic clothes when we were younger, I know this is a gargantuan task compared to say, a hood, but I am honestly bored.
I’ve had the servants come and bring my materials and equipment to my chambers, it should hopefully keep me busy, plus I get to stare out of my window all day.
Brilliant!
Well, best get started.
Ella x
Saturday
Yakashmite 26th 7648 S.F
Went “Riding” with my sisters today, It’s not as fun as it used to be when I was younger, but I think that's because we’re confined to the Kingdom, we’ve explored it all before, there’s nothing to see… I even think our unicorns got bored. I know Kita; my mount was definitely bored.
It’s not even the end of the first month of the year and already I’m bored with it! I just want some excitement!
I’m going to find something fun to do
Bye
Elloria
It’s not even the end of the first month of the year and already I’m bored with it! I just want some excitement!
I’m going to find something fun to do
Bye
Elloria
Friday
Yakashmite 25th 7648 S.F
Dreams are fading
Into a backwash
Of beautiful sad
And daring days.
A window into a hope
That surpasses
All beauty, but is
Bound up so tight.
Will we ever be set free?
Free to dream in colours
That we've never seen,
And dance with a joy
Beyond our understanding?
Is it just me or is my poetry skill improving just a smidge? I think I’m getting better, don’t you?
Ella XxX
Into a backwash
Of beautiful sad
And daring days.
A window into a hope
That surpasses
All beauty, but is
Bound up so tight.
Will we ever be set free?
Free to dream in colours
That we've never seen,
And dance with a joy
Beyond our understanding?
Is it just me or is my poetry skill improving just a smidge? I think I’m getting better, don’t you?
Ella XxX
Thursday
Yakashmite 24th 7648 S.F
I’ve done nothing all day but stare out of my window, even skipped dinner because I was too busy having fun with my imagination.
Oh what it must be like over there, I wonder if it’s as pretty or Dematria is, or maybe even prettier?
Either way, I am dying to see it, to just look upon its grandeur and its inhabitants. I just wonder how different things are, or similar for that matter.
Enough of my ravings, I’m going to bed.
Goodnight.
Elloria X
Oh what it must be like over there, I wonder if it’s as pretty or Dematria is, or maybe even prettier?
Either way, I am dying to see it, to just look upon its grandeur and its inhabitants. I just wonder how different things are, or similar for that matter.
Enough of my ravings, I’m going to bed.
Goodnight.
Elloria X
Wednesday
Yakashmite 23rd 7648 S.F
Well, I went down to the training grounds today… Sometimes I hate being both a princess AND a woman as I couldn’t find anybody to spar with who would test my limits. I did ask Keela, but she declined.
Overall though, it was still a good day. It was nice to hone my skills.
Its dinnertime soon so I’d best be off.
Elloria XxxX
Overall though, it was still a good day. It was nice to hone my skills.
Its dinnertime soon so I’d best be off.
Elloria XxxX
Tuesday
Yakashmite 22nd 7648 S.F
You know what I’ve just realised? My life is boring!
I have no friends (other than my sisters, but I see them less and less as the days on the calendar are marked off)
It seems all I have is this diary, and my window, which lets me see… Well, you know.
I just wish something more exciting would happen to me. I’m going to die bored and alone.
I might hit the training grounds tomorrow, that’s somewhat fun…
Elloria
I have no friends (other than my sisters, but I see them less and less as the days on the calendar are marked off)
It seems all I have is this diary, and my window, which lets me see… Well, you know.
I just wish something more exciting would happen to me. I’m going to die bored and alone.
I might hit the training grounds tomorrow, that’s somewhat fun…
Elloria
Monday
Yakashmite 21st 7648 S.F
Had an unwanted encounter with some stuck up so-and-so earlier. Lady D’viniya I believe it was.
The snootiest of the snooty, and her son, what a waste of space… Stupid mummies boy!
Anyway, I was looking for a new gown for my sisters’ upcoming birthday (I’d love to wear my awesome pink dress, but I do need something a bit more formal) and as I was browsing the fine wares I hear this woman’s voice from behind me, advising her son to try on whatever clothing. After much obligation on his part, she turns to me and asks my opinion; naturally I just looked at her, smiled and ip-dip-dooed (in my head, of course) an item of clothing (never even looked at her son, I don’t care if whatever does or doesn’t suit him, not my problem).
After she’d finished “thanking me” for my “input”, I went back to looking at gowns, not five minutes later she turns back around and looks at the gowns I’m perusing and starts saying “ooh, that’s nice, that’s nice too… Oh, you don’t want that, the frill doesn’t look right” and so on.
Lady, I don’t care for your input about MY clothes… But in the name of the gods, why can I not be allowed to choose my garments in peace? It was only the other week I was told I’d look like a streetwalker in my pink dress. But it’s nobodies business but mine as to what I do and do not wear. Why can’t people just leave me alone and let me shop in peace?
Maybe next time I’ll be luckier.
Ella Xx
The snootiest of the snooty, and her son, what a waste of space… Stupid mummies boy!
Anyway, I was looking for a new gown for my sisters’ upcoming birthday (I’d love to wear my awesome pink dress, but I do need something a bit more formal) and as I was browsing the fine wares I hear this woman’s voice from behind me, advising her son to try on whatever clothing. After much obligation on his part, she turns to me and asks my opinion; naturally I just looked at her, smiled and ip-dip-dooed (in my head, of course) an item of clothing (never even looked at her son, I don’t care if whatever does or doesn’t suit him, not my problem).
After she’d finished “thanking me” for my “input”, I went back to looking at gowns, not five minutes later she turns back around and looks at the gowns I’m perusing and starts saying “ooh, that’s nice, that’s nice too… Oh, you don’t want that, the frill doesn’t look right” and so on.
Lady, I don’t care for your input about MY clothes… But in the name of the gods, why can I not be allowed to choose my garments in peace? It was only the other week I was told I’d look like a streetwalker in my pink dress. But it’s nobodies business but mine as to what I do and do not wear. Why can’t people just leave me alone and let me shop in peace?
Maybe next time I’ll be luckier.
Ella Xx
Sunday
Yakashmite 20th 7648 S.F
Father invited my sisters and I to sit with him in a council meeting at the senate house.
I really don’t know why though, I have no interest in affairs of state, and Layanna will most likely be Queen after father goes as she is the oldest, so it would be more beneficial to her.
I just hope when she is Queen that she doesn’t have me accompany her. Those council meetings are so boring! Just a load of old men & women arguing amongst themselves… Even father looked bored.
It did come as quite a shock when he took over though, shouting at the top of his lungs for everyone to be quiet; they almost browned their pants. I think a few actually did.
But it was tedious though, but fortunately, those two long hours were the only tedium I had to endure.
After the council meeting had finished, father took my sisters and I to a bakery and got them to make us a special cake. It took a couple of hours to be ready (we spent the time sitting by the fountain, talking and occasionally splashing each other, even father joined in. It’s nice to see him smile. I do wish he’d cut his hair though)
Anyway, when the cake was almost ready, we went back and watched as the bakers decorated the cake in such artistic fashion. It was exquisite.
But, I think that at that time, father was missing his dear wife, for she used to work in a family run bakery (which is now a carpenters shop), and I think he wanted to reclaim some of the history he shared with my mother when he used to visit her while she worked.
He’s a strong man on the outside, loving, kind and caring… But on the inside, I think he’s still broken, like when my mother died, a part of him died with her. I see him sometimes just looking out to sea with tears in his eyes. He totally denies it of course, says that the salty air is irritating them, but I know better.
I just can’t imagine what it would be like to have the one person you loved most in the world, snatched from you. I don’t think it makes it any better that I’m apparently her double (aside from the hair colour) it must be tough for him if every time he looks at me, he sees his darling wife.
I love you daddy.
Ellie XxxX
I really don’t know why though, I have no interest in affairs of state, and Layanna will most likely be Queen after father goes as she is the oldest, so it would be more beneficial to her.
I just hope when she is Queen that she doesn’t have me accompany her. Those council meetings are so boring! Just a load of old men & women arguing amongst themselves… Even father looked bored.
It did come as quite a shock when he took over though, shouting at the top of his lungs for everyone to be quiet; they almost browned their pants. I think a few actually did.
But it was tedious though, but fortunately, those two long hours were the only tedium I had to endure.
After the council meeting had finished, father took my sisters and I to a bakery and got them to make us a special cake. It took a couple of hours to be ready (we spent the time sitting by the fountain, talking and occasionally splashing each other, even father joined in. It’s nice to see him smile. I do wish he’d cut his hair though)
Anyway, when the cake was almost ready, we went back and watched as the bakers decorated the cake in such artistic fashion. It was exquisite.
But, I think that at that time, father was missing his dear wife, for she used to work in a family run bakery (which is now a carpenters shop), and I think he wanted to reclaim some of the history he shared with my mother when he used to visit her while she worked.
He’s a strong man on the outside, loving, kind and caring… But on the inside, I think he’s still broken, like when my mother died, a part of him died with her. I see him sometimes just looking out to sea with tears in his eyes. He totally denies it of course, says that the salty air is irritating them, but I know better.
I just can’t imagine what it would be like to have the one person you loved most in the world, snatched from you. I don’t think it makes it any better that I’m apparently her double (aside from the hair colour) it must be tough for him if every time he looks at me, he sees his darling wife.
I love you daddy.
Ellie XxxX
Saturday
Yakashmite 19th 7648 S.F
You want to know what I did today? Nothing! Absolutely nothing, and it was brilliant.
Aside from eating my meals, I’ve spent the entire day in my chambers just staring out beyond the forest to the human kingdom beyond, mystified by its allure.
I know I talk about it quite a lot, but I do hope I can one day see it up close with my own two eyes.
In the very distance I can see something that I can only assume is a steeple, and when the sun eventually set, the light bounced off of the top and bathed it in an otherworldly glow. It was quite the sight.
Anyway, I’m tired so I’m going to retire for the night.
Love
Ella X
Aside from eating my meals, I’ve spent the entire day in my chambers just staring out beyond the forest to the human kingdom beyond, mystified by its allure.
I know I talk about it quite a lot, but I do hope I can one day see it up close with my own two eyes.
In the very distance I can see something that I can only assume is a steeple, and when the sun eventually set, the light bounced off of the top and bathed it in an otherworldly glow. It was quite the sight.
Anyway, I’m tired so I’m going to retire for the night.
Love
Ella X
Friday
Yakashmite 18th 7648 S.F
I’ve had a read back of my diary so far, and I’ve noticed a bit of a pattern emerging within it.
I talk a lot of seeking adventure; and not just visiting the human kingdom - but about lots of things. Am I really that bored with my life? Why do I want to risk my life?
I’ve both read and heard tales of adventurers, though history has blurred the lines between reality and fantasy somewhat so it is admittedly hard to decipher what is real and what isn’t.
But these tales are filled with quite a lot of danger. Often I do find myself thinking about these stories, and some of the predicaments the heroes find themselves in are… Well, it just wouldn’t happen.
And why is it that there are no heroines within these stories? I’ve noticed women tend to be used as love interests mainly… And the illustrations are so sexist. They tend to depict the women (who normally tend to be tribal warrior women or the like) as dainty women with long flowing hair, a huge sword, large breasts and barely anything covering her flesh. A small brazier and a loincloth usually.
As a warrior princess, I can say that it’s far from wrong! I have my own battledress; my body, whilst not muscular is well toned. I know to tie my hair back before battle and also know that a perfectly balanced sword is better than a hulking great piece of steel.
You’d never catch me going into battle with a claymore sword, loose hair and no armour! Not unless I was forced to by lack of choice… But that’s unlikely!
These “warrior women” in the stories disgust me; I’d like to see a more realistic depiction of a female warrior in a fantasy novel some time. But I highly doubt I’ll see the day it happens.
I just might have to write one myself. I can base the character on me, give it a dull title like “Faerie-Tale” and make the story about my crossing the forest to the human kingdom.
No, all joking aside and back to my original point. Why do I have such a thirst for adventure?
I’ll have to ponder this question and get back to you.
Elloria
XxxxxxX
I talk a lot of seeking adventure; and not just visiting the human kingdom - but about lots of things. Am I really that bored with my life? Why do I want to risk my life?
I’ve both read and heard tales of adventurers, though history has blurred the lines between reality and fantasy somewhat so it is admittedly hard to decipher what is real and what isn’t.
But these tales are filled with quite a lot of danger. Often I do find myself thinking about these stories, and some of the predicaments the heroes find themselves in are… Well, it just wouldn’t happen.
And why is it that there are no heroines within these stories? I’ve noticed women tend to be used as love interests mainly… And the illustrations are so sexist. They tend to depict the women (who normally tend to be tribal warrior women or the like) as dainty women with long flowing hair, a huge sword, large breasts and barely anything covering her flesh. A small brazier and a loincloth usually.
As a warrior princess, I can say that it’s far from wrong! I have my own battledress; my body, whilst not muscular is well toned. I know to tie my hair back before battle and also know that a perfectly balanced sword is better than a hulking great piece of steel.
You’d never catch me going into battle with a claymore sword, loose hair and no armour! Not unless I was forced to by lack of choice… But that’s unlikely!
These “warrior women” in the stories disgust me; I’d like to see a more realistic depiction of a female warrior in a fantasy novel some time. But I highly doubt I’ll see the day it happens.
I just might have to write one myself. I can base the character on me, give it a dull title like “Faerie-Tale” and make the story about my crossing the forest to the human kingdom.
No, all joking aside and back to my original point. Why do I have such a thirst for adventure?
I’ll have to ponder this question and get back to you.
Elloria
XxxxxxX
Thursday
Yakashmite 17th 7648 S.F
I can't be bothered today... I really can't.
It's not that I just feel lethargic or anything, just that I really can't think of anything worth doing.
Other than look out at that magical kingdom beyond the forest...
… To dream the dreams I dare not speak.
Ella x
It's not that I just feel lethargic or anything, just that I really can't think of anything worth doing.
Other than look out at that magical kingdom beyond the forest...
… To dream the dreams I dare not speak.
Ella x
Wednesday
Yakashmite 16th 7648 S.F
By the gods, some people can be so vexatious!
You remember a few days ago when I told you about that woman who said my pretty new dress was beneath me (to put it nicely)
Well I saw her again whilst with my sisters.
She just walks up to me, out of nowhere and says "Glad to see you're dressing like royalty and not like street trash" obviously in reference to the dress I bought.
Ugh, I swear, I really wanted to garrotte her! How dare she talk to me in such a manner? Me, a Dematri’aan princess.
And people wonder why I hate the rich.
Ugh, I’m going to have a lie down, I still can’t believe that arrogant bitch
Talk to you soon
Love Elloria
XxxxxXxxxxX
You remember a few days ago when I told you about that woman who said my pretty new dress was beneath me (to put it nicely)
Well I saw her again whilst with my sisters.
She just walks up to me, out of nowhere and says "Glad to see you're dressing like royalty and not like street trash" obviously in reference to the dress I bought.
Ugh, I swear, I really wanted to garrotte her! How dare she talk to me in such a manner? Me, a Dematri’aan princess.
And people wonder why I hate the rich.
Ugh, I’m going to have a lie down, I still can’t believe that arrogant bitch
Talk to you soon
Love Elloria
XxxxxXxxxxX
Tuesday
Yakashmite 15th 7648 S.F
Oh how I long to visit that 'world' beyond the forest.
It just captivates me in a way I can't even begin to comprehend, but I'll never get there.
For one, as you already know, it's forbidden.
Two, well that forest is HUGE! I'll never be able to cross that! It'll take me over a week; I just can't go that long without food.
Though who knows? Some day I just might get there... When one of my sisters becomes queen they may make amends with the king or queen (or both) and re-build the relationship between the humans and the enchants.
But that's such a long time away; I'll be... What? Forty? If that young… maybe even fifty.
Oh well, I'll just have to keep dreaming.
Got to go, Dinners ready
Love Ellie
XxxxxX
It just captivates me in a way I can't even begin to comprehend, but I'll never get there.
For one, as you already know, it's forbidden.
Two, well that forest is HUGE! I'll never be able to cross that! It'll take me over a week; I just can't go that long without food.
Though who knows? Some day I just might get there... When one of my sisters becomes queen they may make amends with the king or queen (or both) and re-build the relationship between the humans and the enchants.
But that's such a long time away; I'll be... What? Forty? If that young… maybe even fifty.
Oh well, I'll just have to keep dreaming.
Got to go, Dinners ready
Love Ellie
XxxxxX
Monday
Yakashmite 14th 7648 S.F
Just a mild headache today, nothing major. It's brilliant.
I feel like me again!!
Oh you can't understand how it feels to not feel ill anymore!
Today I again stayed at home, but it was good, I just lazed about, it was bliss.
My sisters did join me at one point and it was so fun, just lounging around, talking about how much things have changed since we were little, and even the antics we used to get up to as little fae.
I again spoke with my sisters of my ever growing 'obsession' with the human kingdom beyond the forest and they just looked at me like I was nuts, especially Layanna, I don't think she approves of my growing interest at all.
Ah well, stuff her… it's my life.
Talk soon.
Ella
XxX
I feel like me again!!
Oh you can't understand how it feels to not feel ill anymore!
Today I again stayed at home, but it was good, I just lazed about, it was bliss.
My sisters did join me at one point and it was so fun, just lounging around, talking about how much things have changed since we were little, and even the antics we used to get up to as little fae.
I again spoke with my sisters of my ever growing 'obsession' with the human kingdom beyond the forest and they just looked at me like I was nuts, especially Layanna, I don't think she approves of my growing interest at all.
Ah well, stuff her… it's my life.
Talk soon.
Ella
XxX
Sunday
Yakashmite 13th 7648 S.F
I woke up today to quite a surprise. All the snow had melted. Near enough
My dear forest is back to its vibrant green colour, it's quite refreshing. I just wish those looming grey clouds would vanish
I also feel a lot better. Still have a bit of a tickle in my throat, but it's an improvement I guess.
We'll have to see what happens. Hopefully though I'm over the worst of it now.
Other than that, there's not much to write about. I've pretty much spent all day just lazing about the palace.
Quite dull really, but with the way I feel, dull is what I need.
See you later
Love Elloria
My dear forest is back to its vibrant green colour, it's quite refreshing. I just wish those looming grey clouds would vanish
I also feel a lot better. Still have a bit of a tickle in my throat, but it's an improvement I guess.
We'll have to see what happens. Hopefully though I'm over the worst of it now.
Other than that, there's not much to write about. I've pretty much spent all day just lazing about the palace.
Quite dull really, but with the way I feel, dull is what I need.
See you later
Love Elloria
Saturday
Yakashmite 12th 7648 S.F
Still not feeling all too well today. In fact, I feel that I’m getting worse. Last night was pretty bad; I thought I was going to die.
But upon reflection, maybe that isn’t such a bad thing after all; there is peace and tranquillity in death.
When I was a little girl, I used to think that after I died, the world would end because I couldn't comprehend the idea of the world existing without me.
Silly, huh?
Anyway, I’m tired and going back to sleep.
Ellie x
But upon reflection, maybe that isn’t such a bad thing after all; there is peace and tranquillity in death.
When I was a little girl, I used to think that after I died, the world would end because I couldn't comprehend the idea of the world existing without me.
Silly, huh?
Anyway, I’m tired and going back to sleep.
Ellie x
Friday
Yakashmite 11th 7648 S.F
I’m not feeling too well today… I have horrible stomach cramps from you-know-what and a massive headache to go alongside what appears to be the early stages of a nasty cold. Oh this next week is going to be fun.
I was so looking forward to wearing that gorgeous dress I bought yesterday as well… And yes, I’m still severely ticked off about that noblewoman’s comments! I swear to the gods, if I weren’t royalty, I’d unleash language that could make a sailor blush. Not that it’s stopped me before… haha. But no, language like that should only be used in the most… What’s the word? Ah! Extreme situations.
Anyway, I’d better be off, I was instructed by my doctor to get lots of bed rest, even though I don’t want to slob about in bed all day. Oh well, at least I can see the spires of that alluring world beyond the enchanted forest. Though I don’t know why it is called that. It looks like a normal forest to me, there’s nothing enchanting about it.
Ta-ta for now.
Ella x
I was so looking forward to wearing that gorgeous dress I bought yesterday as well… And yes, I’m still severely ticked off about that noblewoman’s comments! I swear to the gods, if I weren’t royalty, I’d unleash language that could make a sailor blush. Not that it’s stopped me before… haha. But no, language like that should only be used in the most… What’s the word? Ah! Extreme situations.
Anyway, I’d better be off, I was instructed by my doctor to get lots of bed rest, even though I don’t want to slob about in bed all day. Oh well, at least I can see the spires of that alluring world beyond the enchanted forest. Though I don’t know why it is called that. It looks like a normal forest to me, there’s nothing enchanting about it.
Ta-ta for now.
Ella x
Thursday
Yakashmite 10th 7648 S.F
By the gods! People make me so damn angry!
Keela and I went to the re-opened market today because I wanted a new dress and I had seen the new stock come in from the boat on the docks. I prefer market traders to those posh, upscale shops in the rich district (because I hate the nobles) and as I was browsing through the dresses, who should bump into me? A noble woman, Lady varavonn… something-or-other, who cares anyway?
Anydoodle, I found this really nice pink dress, knee length hem, sleeveless, but with nice thick shoulder straps and a good neckline, not too plunging, because a lady should be modest. Also it’s nice and thin, not one of those wild bouffant dresses the noble women all wear, you know the ones? Them that make their arses look the size of a unicorns. As I was looking at this dress, I was thinking it would go nicely with some nice, white shoosies… Or brown leather boots, only the gods know why I would pick such an odd combination.
So as I took the dress off the rack, this noble woman comes from nowhere and tells me that.
“A lady of my personage should not be buying or wearing tatty clothes that are suitable only for the riff-raff and streetwalkers”
I have no idea where she came from or why she was even in the “poor” district (I prefer the term “lower” district)
Does she forget that my own mother came from a poor, hard-working family that grew up in the lower district? And I am not ashamed to say I am proud to have my roots here amongst the more deserving.
But why can people not mind their own damn business? It just really annoys me that there is always somebody out there ready to stick their nose where it doesn’t belong. And they’re always from the higher class.
Anyway, I bought the dress! I tried it on as soon as I got home and I must say I LOVE it! I’m going to wear it at every possible opportunity! Plus it will annoy those snooty higher-class women, which makes it both a bonus and a bargain.
Anyway, must go, I have to go for my dinner.
Toodle-ooh and all that posh nonsense.
Ellie xx
Keela and I went to the re-opened market today because I wanted a new dress and I had seen the new stock come in from the boat on the docks. I prefer market traders to those posh, upscale shops in the rich district (because I hate the nobles) and as I was browsing through the dresses, who should bump into me? A noble woman, Lady varavonn… something-or-other, who cares anyway?
Anydoodle, I found this really nice pink dress, knee length hem, sleeveless, but with nice thick shoulder straps and a good neckline, not too plunging, because a lady should be modest. Also it’s nice and thin, not one of those wild bouffant dresses the noble women all wear, you know the ones? Them that make their arses look the size of a unicorns. As I was looking at this dress, I was thinking it would go nicely with some nice, white shoosies… Or brown leather boots, only the gods know why I would pick such an odd combination.
So as I took the dress off the rack, this noble woman comes from nowhere and tells me that.
“A lady of my personage should not be buying or wearing tatty clothes that are suitable only for the riff-raff and streetwalkers”
I have no idea where she came from or why she was even in the “poor” district (I prefer the term “lower” district)
Does she forget that my own mother came from a poor, hard-working family that grew up in the lower district? And I am not ashamed to say I am proud to have my roots here amongst the more deserving.
But why can people not mind their own damn business? It just really annoys me that there is always somebody out there ready to stick their nose where it doesn’t belong. And they’re always from the higher class.
Anyway, I bought the dress! I tried it on as soon as I got home and I must say I LOVE it! I’m going to wear it at every possible opportunity! Plus it will annoy those snooty higher-class women, which makes it both a bonus and a bargain.
Anyway, must go, I have to go for my dinner.
Toodle-ooh and all that posh nonsense.
Ellie xx
Wednesday
Yakashmite 9th 7648 S.F
Good news, the snow that had submerged most of the kingdom is now beginning to melt as the sun is proudly shining upon it.
I don’t understand though, if the sun is shining, how can it still be so cold?
Today was tediously dull, there was nothing to do, I spent most of my day up in my chambers, staring out to the magic kingdom beyond the forest. Oh how I long to see beyond its walls.
I also wrote another poem, I’m quite proud of it so I shall also write it here for the sake of preservation.
“I dream the dreams I dare not speak
My fantasies, they make me weak
In the end I will be all but gone
To allow the world to move along
I live a lie in a field of mist
Hoping just to once more exist
And it is love that I hope to seek
But I dare not wonder, dare not peek
For within this world that we all share
Is a sinful life, though none shall care
And when it comes, when I am slain
My love is lost, but my soul is gained
How I wonder, how I wish
To find my love and true loves kiss
But in the end, I have nothing but pain
How I long to live and love again”
I must be going. I grow tired and the flame on this candle grows shorter by the second.
We could be in for more cold tonight… Oh goodie…
Bye for now
Ella
X
I don’t understand though, if the sun is shining, how can it still be so cold?
Today was tediously dull, there was nothing to do, I spent most of my day up in my chambers, staring out to the magic kingdom beyond the forest. Oh how I long to see beyond its walls.
I also wrote another poem, I’m quite proud of it so I shall also write it here for the sake of preservation.
“I dream the dreams I dare not speak
My fantasies, they make me weak
In the end I will be all but gone
To allow the world to move along
I live a lie in a field of mist
Hoping just to once more exist
And it is love that I hope to seek
But I dare not wonder, dare not peek
For within this world that we all share
Is a sinful life, though none shall care
And when it comes, when I am slain
My love is lost, but my soul is gained
How I wonder, how I wish
To find my love and true loves kiss
But in the end, I have nothing but pain
How I long to live and love again”
I must be going. I grow tired and the flame on this candle grows shorter by the second.
We could be in for more cold tonight… Oh goodie…
Bye for now
Ella
X
Tuesday
Yakashmite 8th 7648 S.F
Earlier today I was talking with my sisters (as I do) and as we wondered round the palace we happened to bump into our father’s most faithful advisor (whom I used to fear as a child due to his eyes being stitched shut after losing his sight) who was kind enough to amuse us with some history.
According to him this very palace I stand on was built on top of the ruins of an even more ancient one, now whether this ancient palace belonged to the ancients themselves or someone younger or even older than the ancient is unknown however.
The fact there is another building beneath this one intrigues me and I would love to someday visit it, but my father is smart.
The boundaries between this beautiful structure and the ancient one below are behind the prison that lives deep within the bowels of this place.
I have heard horrific stories about it though, at how they torture thieves, rapists, murderers and a whole assortment of individuals who wish to break the law, sometimes, I think I can even hear the screams of these men and women seeping up through the stones in the floor… maybe its my imagination, but things like that are not what a princess should be imagining.
Maybe one day when I am much older and the kingdom under the reign of one of my sisters I shall venture through the dungeons to find this other kingdom… but until then, it shall forever remain a mystery.
Speaking of sisters, I think I shall go and join them in whatever activity they are doing.
Bye for now
Lots of Love
Elloria
According to him this very palace I stand on was built on top of the ruins of an even more ancient one, now whether this ancient palace belonged to the ancients themselves or someone younger or even older than the ancient is unknown however.
The fact there is another building beneath this one intrigues me and I would love to someday visit it, but my father is smart.
The boundaries between this beautiful structure and the ancient one below are behind the prison that lives deep within the bowels of this place.
I have heard horrific stories about it though, at how they torture thieves, rapists, murderers and a whole assortment of individuals who wish to break the law, sometimes, I think I can even hear the screams of these men and women seeping up through the stones in the floor… maybe its my imagination, but things like that are not what a princess should be imagining.
Maybe one day when I am much older and the kingdom under the reign of one of my sisters I shall venture through the dungeons to find this other kingdom… but until then, it shall forever remain a mystery.
Speaking of sisters, I think I shall go and join them in whatever activity they are doing.
Bye for now
Lots of Love
Elloria
Monday
Yakashmite 7th 7648 S.F
Well… another day has gone by, time never seems to slow down and let me just enjoy what is, I am a young woman but shall soon be an old crone if time continues to move as fast as it is.
I know I am supposed to have fun during my teen years (Though I am actually twenty, as you know), for it is then you are old enough to appreciate what you have but are young enough to enjoy it, but how can I enjoy it when so many things permit me from doing so? My duties, my status, my unfulfilled desires and time itself, because there isn’t enough time for me to do these things and still be able to have fun.
I know I seem to be rambling here and that I should get to a point about it, but I can’t, I’m writing this nonsense simply to stem the boredom that is currently plaguing me.
Normally I would go out as you know, even during these cold winter months but last night gave birth to a fierce blizzard.
The winds howled, the glass in my shutters clattered and the snow and darkness symbiotically obscured my view and out of the madness of nature came a thing of beauty.
From my own bedroom I can see barely the forest, covered in a blanket of white and the human kingdom beyond it the same.
My own kingdom however bears the startling horror of what the blizzard thrust upon us, most of the good people who live here are snowed in, kept prisoner in their own homes by a frosty guard, naturally my father and his serves have gone to try and help the hundreds, if not thousands that are stuck, but I fear their efforts are for nought and that the best option would be simply thus: wait for the snow to melt.
It is a remarkable sight though.
Toodles for now
Elloria
I know I am supposed to have fun during my teen years (Though I am actually twenty, as you know), for it is then you are old enough to appreciate what you have but are young enough to enjoy it, but how can I enjoy it when so many things permit me from doing so? My duties, my status, my unfulfilled desires and time itself, because there isn’t enough time for me to do these things and still be able to have fun.
I know I seem to be rambling here and that I should get to a point about it, but I can’t, I’m writing this nonsense simply to stem the boredom that is currently plaguing me.
Normally I would go out as you know, even during these cold winter months but last night gave birth to a fierce blizzard.
The winds howled, the glass in my shutters clattered and the snow and darkness symbiotically obscured my view and out of the madness of nature came a thing of beauty.
From my own bedroom I can see barely the forest, covered in a blanket of white and the human kingdom beyond it the same.
My own kingdom however bears the startling horror of what the blizzard thrust upon us, most of the good people who live here are snowed in, kept prisoner in their own homes by a frosty guard, naturally my father and his serves have gone to try and help the hundreds, if not thousands that are stuck, but I fear their efforts are for nought and that the best option would be simply thus: wait for the snow to melt.
It is a remarkable sight though.
Toodles for now
Elloria
Sunday
Yakashmite 6th 7648 S.F
Last night I did as I said I would do and ventured into the crypt.
It was awfully cold, spooky and dark, but there was something about being in there that eased me.
Ancestors lined the walls in their stone caskets; I was shocked to see dates that go as far back as five hundred years.
My mothers sarcophagus however was not contained within the tomb.
I was deeply saddened by this until I noticed a door at the far back of the crypt that led to a passageway, this passageway in turn led to another door.
My dear mother rests beyond that door.
She doesn’t actually reside within the crypt itself; instead she has been laid to rest on a specially built balcony that overlooks the ocean.
The balcony floor is somehow coated with grass, roses and other botanical wonders, she always did (apparently, I never really knew her) love the outdoors and I think its wonderful, lovely and extremely romantic of my father to take all this into consideration when picking her place of eternal rest.
Hmm, it’s snowing again, and quite heavily I might add… I can’t see a thing through it.
It looks like tonight will be a cold night for all, a shame really because I’m just about to climb into bed… I love watching the snow.
Ta-ta for now
Ellie
XxXxX
It was awfully cold, spooky and dark, but there was something about being in there that eased me.
Ancestors lined the walls in their stone caskets; I was shocked to see dates that go as far back as five hundred years.
My mothers sarcophagus however was not contained within the tomb.
I was deeply saddened by this until I noticed a door at the far back of the crypt that led to a passageway, this passageway in turn led to another door.
My dear mother rests beyond that door.
She doesn’t actually reside within the crypt itself; instead she has been laid to rest on a specially built balcony that overlooks the ocean.
The balcony floor is somehow coated with grass, roses and other botanical wonders, she always did (apparently, I never really knew her) love the outdoors and I think its wonderful, lovely and extremely romantic of my father to take all this into consideration when picking her place of eternal rest.
Hmm, it’s snowing again, and quite heavily I might add… I can’t see a thing through it.
It looks like tonight will be a cold night for all, a shame really because I’m just about to climb into bed… I love watching the snow.
Ta-ta for now
Ellie
XxXxX
Saturday
Yakashmite 5th 7648 S.F
It snowed a bit earlier today; I’m surprised… Surprised it didn’t happen sooner.
It didn’t last long, only for an hour or so, but that hour seemed magical as I looked out of the glass doors that overlooked our hanging gardens and watched with childish joy as the white flakes fluttered to the ground before disappearing as they melted away.
I do wish it would stick. Everything looks so lovely when covered in the pristine, white blanket of nature.
In other news, I finally discovered the combination to the family crypt. I haven’t been in yet though, I’m too frightened.
Maybe I’ll venture in tonight once I know everybody is asleep.
It sounds like a good idea to me anyway.
Must be going now.
I promised my sisters I’d beat them in a game of chuzzit
Love
Elloria
XxxxxxX
It didn’t last long, only for an hour or so, but that hour seemed magical as I looked out of the glass doors that overlooked our hanging gardens and watched with childish joy as the white flakes fluttered to the ground before disappearing as they melted away.
I do wish it would stick. Everything looks so lovely when covered in the pristine, white blanket of nature.
In other news, I finally discovered the combination to the family crypt. I haven’t been in yet though, I’m too frightened.
Maybe I’ll venture in tonight once I know everybody is asleep.
It sounds like a good idea to me anyway.
Must be going now.
I promised my sisters I’d beat them in a game of chuzzit
Love
Elloria
XxxxxxX
Friday
Yakashmite 4th 7648 S.F
I had the strangest dream last night.
I just can't seem to get it out of my head and it plays over and over again, it really is quite baffling.
I'm standing in a hospital, waiting at the reception for somebody to come and attend to me and the place is eerily empty save for the odd nurse that walks through the waiting room and through some large grey doors.
Suddenly torches on the wall begin to flicker violently and in that split second the room is in blackness. The black shadowy figure of a girl I know all too well as someone who has haunted a previous recurring nightmare, and several others is visible and vanishes the very moment the torches burst into wild flame.
The image of this girl scares me half to death so I run and push myself through the door into a long corridor, I keep running until I emerge into another waiting room at the other end, and this room is bustling with patients and doctors etc.
I feel safe for the moment, then the torches flicker again and then the light in the hospital dies.
As an eerie green glow suddenly illuminates the room I see the shadowy ghost appear in the half light, I can't see her face but I know she's angry and suddenly papers begin to fly off desks, sparks of blue lightning emit from nowhere and the receptionist is hurled over her station and into a window.
I quickly run behind the reception desk, and as I duck and hide behind it a doctor kneels beside me and tells me something, I can't remember what he said, but instantly, after he did I stood up to face the ghost.
I look at her and she is no longer shadowy, she dusts down a mud covered black dress and looks at me, her skin is pale and as pure as winter snow and her eyes are a dazzling sea blue.
With her long black hair tucked back behind her ears she just stares at me until I hear her say "mummy" and that’s it, that’s all she says, and only once before picking a teddy bear up off the ground and carries it off down the hallway.
Creepy huh?
Ella x
I just can't seem to get it out of my head and it plays over and over again, it really is quite baffling.
I'm standing in a hospital, waiting at the reception for somebody to come and attend to me and the place is eerily empty save for the odd nurse that walks through the waiting room and through some large grey doors.
Suddenly torches on the wall begin to flicker violently and in that split second the room is in blackness. The black shadowy figure of a girl I know all too well as someone who has haunted a previous recurring nightmare, and several others is visible and vanishes the very moment the torches burst into wild flame.
The image of this girl scares me half to death so I run and push myself through the door into a long corridor, I keep running until I emerge into another waiting room at the other end, and this room is bustling with patients and doctors etc.
I feel safe for the moment, then the torches flicker again and then the light in the hospital dies.
As an eerie green glow suddenly illuminates the room I see the shadowy ghost appear in the half light, I can't see her face but I know she's angry and suddenly papers begin to fly off desks, sparks of blue lightning emit from nowhere and the receptionist is hurled over her station and into a window.
I quickly run behind the reception desk, and as I duck and hide behind it a doctor kneels beside me and tells me something, I can't remember what he said, but instantly, after he did I stood up to face the ghost.
I look at her and she is no longer shadowy, she dusts down a mud covered black dress and looks at me, her skin is pale and as pure as winter snow and her eyes are a dazzling sea blue.
With her long black hair tucked back behind her ears she just stares at me until I hear her say "mummy" and that’s it, that’s all she says, and only once before picking a teddy bear up off the ground and carries it off down the hallway.
Creepy huh?
Ella x
Thursday
Yakashmite 3rd 7648 S.F
The human kingdom across the forest still captivates my mind as it has done for countless years, but now my strong yearning to visit it grows ever stronger as I look out of my frost bitten window to see it there, sat beyond a grey mist that the forest is covered in, in lonely solitude.
Something in my blood tells me that one day, I will visit it; I shall see it with my own two eyes. Though something else tells me that I won’t see it for quite some time.
Better just keep dreaming then.
I’ve talked about it with my sisters; they think I’m crazy for wanting to visit that place, especially after how our mother died.
Thing is though, I don’t know how she died, nobody has the decency to tell me anything so instead, I am left ignorant to the reason. But for some strange reason, they seem to assume I know, at least they speak as if I do.
Weird.
Anyway, it’s almost dinnertime.
I’ll look forward to writing more soon.
Ellie xx
Something in my blood tells me that one day, I will visit it; I shall see it with my own two eyes. Though something else tells me that I won’t see it for quite some time.
Better just keep dreaming then.
I’ve talked about it with my sisters; they think I’m crazy for wanting to visit that place, especially after how our mother died.
Thing is though, I don’t know how she died, nobody has the decency to tell me anything so instead, I am left ignorant to the reason. But for some strange reason, they seem to assume I know, at least they speak as if I do.
Weird.
Anyway, it’s almost dinnertime.
I’ll look forward to writing more soon.
Ellie xx
Wednesday
Yakashmite 2nd 7648 S.F
The second day of the year 7648 S.F (Saiga frerren) has come to my, as of lately, sleepy little kingdom, as well as the rest of the world of Ariy’aan.
My sisters and I thought it would be fun to venture down into the kingdom and have a look around while all the shops were shut for the holiday. So we donned our furs, and off we set.
What we saw there however chilled us to the bone, and that’s not because it was cold outside.
The kingdom was absolutely desolate, not a soul to be seen, anywhere.
The stalls were all closed up, as were the shops and places of those that make products to sell The docks were empty, even the boats that were moored there, they just bobbed up and down in the water.
Not even the children were out playing. I guess this horrid; cold weather we’re having is just too much for anybody.
But it was a scary experience, I remember once, when I was much younger, imagining what it would be like if everyone in the kingdom just vanished. But I never imagined it to be like this.
After we arrived at home, the three of us just spent the last few remaining hours, up until the point of where I write this, in our fathers study by the fireplace.
Must dash; have to rejoin my sisters for some biscuits and wine. Yum
Elloria
My sisters and I thought it would be fun to venture down into the kingdom and have a look around while all the shops were shut for the holiday. So we donned our furs, and off we set.
What we saw there however chilled us to the bone, and that’s not because it was cold outside.
The kingdom was absolutely desolate, not a soul to be seen, anywhere.
The stalls were all closed up, as were the shops and places of those that make products to sell The docks were empty, even the boats that were moored there, they just bobbed up and down in the water.
Not even the children were out playing. I guess this horrid; cold weather we’re having is just too much for anybody.
But it was a scary experience, I remember once, when I was much younger, imagining what it would be like if everyone in the kingdom just vanished. But I never imagined it to be like this.
After we arrived at home, the three of us just spent the last few remaining hours, up until the point of where I write this, in our fathers study by the fireplace.
Must dash; have to rejoin my sisters for some biscuits and wine. Yum
Elloria
Monday
Yakashmite 1st 7648 S.F
Here it is, another year, another new diary to fill.
The annual party my father threw last night was brilliant, as it normally is, but for some strange reason, I just wasn’t in the mood for it, I just didn’t at all feel like mingling with people, I just wanted to be left alone.
It was funny though to see my sisters drunk on wine and singing loudly, out of tune I might add.
But as I sit here now, on the first eve of this New Year, I do wonder what this year will bring to my life.
Love? Adventure? Peace and tranquillity? I highly doubt it. It will be just the same as last year, except I’ll be a year older.
I sit here in the cold garden as I write this, and fortunately it’s not raining, as it has on & off for several days now, which I am glad, and as I do, I look out at the kingdom and the choppy waves beyond it and I know with all my heart that I wouldn’t want to be anywhere else.
Well, except one place… But I do think I rattle on about that place far too much, don’t you?
But also, I am using this quietness in the cold outside to reflect up on the past year, of wishes that have not been granted, dreams that go unfulfilled and loved ones that can’t be with us, no matter how hard we try.
Speaking of loved ones, I think I’ve almost cracked the code on the door to the family crypt, I just need more time on it, though finding said time is tough when we really aren’t supposed to be in there to let the deceased rest so the servants will question me as much as my father should I be caught.
But I do so long to see what's behind that door, almost as much as I desire to visit the human kingdom beyond the forest that taunts me so.
Anyway, I’m growing cold now going to go inside now and warm up in front of the fire
I look forward to writing in you tomorrow.
Elloria
The annual party my father threw last night was brilliant, as it normally is, but for some strange reason, I just wasn’t in the mood for it, I just didn’t at all feel like mingling with people, I just wanted to be left alone.
It was funny though to see my sisters drunk on wine and singing loudly, out of tune I might add.
But as I sit here now, on the first eve of this New Year, I do wonder what this year will bring to my life.
Love? Adventure? Peace and tranquillity? I highly doubt it. It will be just the same as last year, except I’ll be a year older.
I sit here in the cold garden as I write this, and fortunately it’s not raining, as it has on & off for several days now, which I am glad, and as I do, I look out at the kingdom and the choppy waves beyond it and I know with all my heart that I wouldn’t want to be anywhere else.
Well, except one place… But I do think I rattle on about that place far too much, don’t you?
But also, I am using this quietness in the cold outside to reflect up on the past year, of wishes that have not been granted, dreams that go unfulfilled and loved ones that can’t be with us, no matter how hard we try.
Speaking of loved ones, I think I’ve almost cracked the code on the door to the family crypt, I just need more time on it, though finding said time is tough when we really aren’t supposed to be in there to let the deceased rest so the servants will question me as much as my father should I be caught.
But I do so long to see what's behind that door, almost as much as I desire to visit the human kingdom beyond the forest that taunts me so.
Anyway, I’m growing cold now going to go inside now and warm up in front of the fire
I look forward to writing in you tomorrow.
Elloria
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